Everything in Its Time

How many times have you found yourself having to reevaluate some aspect of your life because things didn’t go as planned? I have always had big dreams for myself, and at this point it doesn’t surprise me when the universe throws me a curveball and I have to make a plan B, or C, or…D. But, I will say that there was a time that I felt like I couldn’t get anything right. It almost felt like the universe was working against me and life was meant to just be more complicated than those of my peers. Whether it was school, or work, or even hobbies, I never felt good enough when things got difficult.

This took a toll on my self-confidence and the feisty girl I was in high school slowly lost her vision of who she wanted to be and what kind of life she wanted for herself. As years passed it became a mindset to think of course life is going to be more difficult for me. I stopped caring. I was on autopilot and living for the next time I could party the worries away. I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted. Instead, I would cry myself to sleep telling myself how much time I’ve wasted as I watched friends get promotions, get married, and start families. Living in my head was a lonely place, where plans A-Z never panned out, and the only thing to do was hold my breath until the sun came up again.

I don’t know when things started to change. I wish I could tell you there was this big ah-ha moment, but I can’t. All I know is one day, I decided I wanted more and I needed to make a change. I made a plan, put in the work, and if the plan needed to be tweaked I didn’t drown in discouraging thoughts. I reevaluated, and adjusted that plan. That’s how I ended up here!

This post is inspired by a conversation I had the other day with my best friend. I had a delayed ah-ha moment and I told her “so far I’ve gotten everything I ever wanted out of life, just not when I expected it.” And then we shared a mini emotional moment as she told me how proud she was of me for coming so far. And she should know, she’s known me since high school! But the thing that stood out the most from that conversation is that she said “everything in its time.” So, I am here to tell you that if you have dreams, you have time. If you’ve been through plan A-Z and it’s still not working, double up. Plan AA could be the one!

Force yourself out of your comfort zone, love yourself enough to tell yourself that YOU ARE ENOUGH, and don’t ever give up on something you know you can be great at! Because even if it doesn’t work out now, it will eventually work itself out and you can achieve your goals!

Happy 2023! Go chase those dreams!